I have two lives ..did she guess so

How close to the truth she came
it was nerve wrecking....
it was agonising......
will it always be like this
will this fear never end..i guess so

As she stepped aside to evade the car zooming past , she turned and her sidelong glance was enough to let me know...that she had probably guessed it
My breath had stopped....i looked up and down, left and right
then my eye held on to some thing....

it was just not possible...
brilliant
i was standing on the road ...beneath the side walk..she could not have seen my feet
All her side long glance might have meant was her suspicion that it could possibly be me..here ..at the bus stand ..and not in my car....
she would have suspected a scandal...bunking...or romance...well let it be , it would have given her quite a thrill and something to do in her worthless life....

but she couldn't possibly have guessed that...
i was wearing bathroom slippers to college yet again !!!

God bless me...the fashion gods save me from all derision at college ..for mismatch and casual is cool there, while it is a sign of impropreity at home..
well who cares about the latter in any case ..

I DO...

but it can be managed as long as i can carry in the dual existence of prim and proper at home and lethargic shabby ole' gurl in college..

Do i see some one winking in acknowledgement...i guess a lot of u are

but sorry to dissapoint u..all this is just my wish...in reality the situation demands me to be right the opposite..lethargy..shabbiness..comfort...at home and chic and cool in college

boy do i miss home !!